New territory

I'm not sure where to go from here. And not literally, I mean figuratively. I feel like I am at a crossroads and I have to make a choice. One way leads to living like I have been, denying what's going on and trying to pretend everything is fine; the way that feels "safer" but with possible consequences I don't want to think about... The other way is a totally different direction, and definitely scarier, with an unchartered course and results I know nothing about. At this very moment, I feel like I'm leaning toward one direction but lacking that final push. I'd really like to make it through the rest of the holidays before making the final choice. It will be difficult regardless of which way I choose.